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i have tons of journals at home, all of which i rarely write in. i figure, maybe if i have this it'll be easier to keep up with.

anyway this week was amazing
wednesday i saw mars volta; fucking mindblowing. got in the middle of a maniac throwin some serious punches, blood spewing everywhere; spent the night getting wasted and angry. friday, i went out for sushi with some of my girls and australians, then went to this club/lounge place where i got free alcohol. saturday dez and erik came in. i really missed her so much cause she's my beautiful best friend. had some good conversation, finally. [i deal with so many boring and/or stupid people.] yesterday i went to st. gennaro, got real fat then saw burn notice. awesome.
then next thursday's nfg.

anyway, my dreams have been so crazy vivid lately. so i started a journal just for my dreams, kind of like william s. burroughs book: my education. it should be pretty sweet after i have a bunch cause then maybe i can make some short stories out of them.
i had this one dream the other day that i can't stop talking about: there was a party going on at my house. Me, dan and a few other faces i cannot recall were in my den. i was standing by the sliding doors, talking, when all of a sudden i knew i was going to die. the conversation turned to me asking what everyone thought happens when you die. everyone said you just die. it ends. this is it. nothingness. then i said, i think this is just a test, an experiment leading to something much much bigger than we could ever imagine. i definitely don't think i meant a "heaven" or something, but possibly. just another world type thing. then after i said that, i vanished, flew away, but was still able to roam around watching everyone.

it was bizarre. and then i told my friend in class and she said that meant someone close to me was going to die and i got all anxious for the rest of the day.

later.