came back to reality on sunday. it's a good feeling being able to breathe in the dirty new york air. i was getting tired of all that clean shit.
i'm really happy. like unbelievably happy. a lot has been taken off my shoulders and i can focus on me now and what i really want. it's a very strange feeling.
i don't know what it is these past couple days, but i have been connecting with so many new people lately. like right off the bat, i can meet people and have absolutely incredible conversations with them. it's really a beautiful feeling, and i think a lot of it has to do with my self awareness. i understand my principles and ideas so much more clearly now and meeting people who feel the same is such a refreshing feeling. there must be something with the star alignment.
This is why i love new york city. people come here to feel alive. people don't come here to settle. this isn't a settling kinda town. you do shit here. you get shit done. i'm always doing something. i can't just sit and watch tv for hours. i'd rather hang myself.
last night was amazing. me kris and er went to visit john at Superfine. got some drnks, watched a gospel group perform(??) then a dj came up afterwards. left for a while to go to a coworkers practice studio. a very home away from home feeling. smoked a joint. had. a fucking. dance party. to say the least lol it was a pretty intense situation that we wrapped ourselves into. i can never listen to MGMT-kids the same. fucking, gracelynn? beautiful, beautiful girl. she can feel the way i feel. and that makes my insides warm. and on top of that aramus was doing the lighting in the tiny recording room. unreal. makes me feel alive. and i havent felt really alive in a long, long time. oh and a quick sidenote. discussions arised and i was talking about my transport to the other dimension and how i saw castles and gracelynn said she refers to "it" as Camelot. we were meant to beeee
anyway, school started today. first day of school's always my favorite. i love seeing the types of people that are going to be learning with me. of course there's always a bunch of jerk offs, but since i'm not taking any teaching classes, i have all new faces. complete opposite of last semester. so, my first class was literary theory and criticism, which completely floored me. some of the things on the outline include modernism, romantics, post modernism, psychology, religion, history, society, culture. helloooo perfect. god. it's going to be incredibly technical, which kind of scares me but at the same time, is exactly what i need. i need a good kick in the ass; i bullshit entirely too much. and my professor is like serious intelligence. he has some sort of disability; wheel chair and crutches. makes perfect sense that his forte is reading and literature. amen to him.
the other class i had today was feature writing. fucking awesome. it's so me and my style of writing. i'm really looking forward to beginning working on some essays. i have a field day with em. the professor is so sick as well. he's from Ireland. of course. all the cool people are irish. he's really funny and likes to talk with us about all sorts of shit. we really break down the news. it's stuff i always do in my head and in my writing, but now i see that there are terms for these things i do lol. like when i read the newspaper, i'll circle things that interest me in particular and write about that point of view, or whatever. i just like taking a lot of notes and then doing research and writing about it. it's fun, i'm weird idk.
anyway, so then i made another new best friend. i'm making so many new best friends it's ridiculous. i just want all my best friends to come together and be best friends with each other. god, there's only so many hours in the day and i want to hang with everyone. he's fuckin awesome and of course is good friends with my fellow teaching buddies. funny: he's a pisces and so was gracelynn, the chick i met last night. amazing. but yeah we got to talking and he's a blast. he got me pace coffee and gave me a piece of his kitkat bar. first time i meet the kid; true friendship right there. we talked and talked and he's a english and writing major. teaches students who speak other languages. it seems like a really cool program, too. fucking, in May he will start this job in Barcelona. really? i like want that. or, need, actually.
i'm just so thrilled with the way things are going in my life. i'm finally surrounded by genuinely beautiful people with good hearts and with good heads on their shoulders oh and like to fucking have a party. i couldn't ask for anything more.
some new words that i'm going to be adding to my vocabulary:
balls (rum diary)
bullshit (mike)
marvelous (professor)
